Alan

2009-08-15T16:04:00.000+08:00

15hrs more to 21KM run!! Looking forward??? , i just want to finish running and go home sleep.

SAF asking us to sleep at 2030hrs and wake up at 0330. WTF!!!

I shall run below 2hrs 45mins.

Zzzzzzzz

2009-08-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

Been some time since i last blogged , been really busy + i am very very lazy to update!

I also forg0t what happen during this 1 month. So summary of this month easier.

Started driving lesson le, half clutch is not easy to catch, and my car died a few times.

Upcoming weeks will be hectic, i booked quite alot of lessons le, before i go for my TP, i want to complete my driving course before the year end!

Can i can i???

It's eating alot of my pay, half of my pay goes to driving center. :(

Watched quite a couple of movies, esp Transformers, Ice Age 3 and 20th Century Boys II.

I'm waiting for 20th Century Boys III.

Went over to Xiao Fan's and Adeline 21st birthday bash.

*Damn, i cant upload the pictures*

Went off early, cause MeiMei g0t to report for work and we left after singing the birthday song!

And ya, for Ade's birthday, i purposely go buy new set of clothes, cus my fashion sense was different from botak and co! HAHA.

Ok, there's some complication btw platoon 3 again. I do not wish to say again, i'm totally pissed off with how things are working. Forget it.

Anyway i'm on standby, so guys, if u see this 2 codes on TV, please give me a call or sms alright, i g0tta book in camp straight.

champion boxer & cold passage.

Ran 16km last week, and now my legs are aching, and even my mom says that my legs are very big. :( , i clock a new personal timing of 1hr34mins.

Next next sunday will be the Army Half Marathon. A 21km run!

Any interested parties willing to join me???

Timing to meet will be 2hr45mins!

Had a farewell dinner w my cousins, he's flying off to USA, it would be a good 2 years. Bon voyage and take care yoh.

2009-07-05T13:38:00.002+08:00

Inter Unit Basketball tournament has started.

First match- Against CBRE

Score 40-48 (Lost)

Second match - Against Bridging

Score 43-33 (Win)

Final match - Against 2PDF

If we win then we will proceed on the the semis.

I want to win!!!

2009-07-01T10:03:00.003+08:00

Finally Coy Prof Test is over.

We, as a whole did not bad, at least it's still up to standard.

Had very little hours of sleep, commanders recce and clearing obstacles, i could only close my eyes for a few mins.

But overall pretty satisfied w my own and my men performance. Good it up guys!

Now, busy w Army Open House(AOH), and i am one of the ambassador. G0tta interact w the public and i cant talk normally to strangers if you know me pretty well. I got to overcome my phobia real real soon.

Ok, i'm in the bball team for 38SCE, will be playing against other Engineer Unit, whoooo, i heard there are national and SAFSA players in other teams. WTH! They should be banned. LOL

Yesterday had a friendly match w the FE players, during warm up, our team simply cannot score from shooting and laying-up, keep missing. Their average height was 175+-, whereas our tallest player is only 180.

??? Wondering if they're all fed w long beans ???

G0t a heated arguement w the opposition team, bloody kuku bird. Brainless botak boy!

We still lost, but was expected cause we dint have any trainings before-hand.

In the end, both my PS and their coach wanted to combine the their team best players and our team best player and form one team, which means one team will be stronger and the other weaker!

Me and 2 others from AE g0t called upon, i duno what the coach sees in me also, i played till damn badly yesterday! Blind coach. Laughs, btw, i'm from AE.

We rejected their offers and stay in our own AE team. Even if lose, also lose as a team.

Anyway, my days in army really sucks, esp when i am in that damn platoon 3.

**How i wish i can be in platoon 1**

And, best example of a scam.

Platoon 3 g0t to give out one specs to do duty on a weekend, and they suggested to play open numbers, by right, before you even start to play, one has g0t to choose who to start counting from right? They dint do that and say just randomly start from one guy after the numbers are shown! And the 3 of them gang up to let me do already, one of them change from 2 to 3! So that i will kena the number. WTF right!

But god has help me secretly, my CSM has changed the date to another day, and i cant do, cause i g0t driving the next morning, so now i will go tell them and ask them do. GREAT. To hell w you guys, motherfuckers !!!

Had an outfield run last week, was held at east coast, 12km run! Ran tgt w my friend, cause yah, he abit cant run and i cant possibly pang seh him and run mahhh, and top 10 has g0t medals ehhh, and i g0t top 10 tooo, but counting from the back! haha.

Chit chat and talk alot abt our past relationships , shhhh, it's all man's talk.

Came back and g0t nagged by my OC for running soooo slow, he expects me to run faster cause i dont belong to the slow runners, but i really cannot run what.

Pray hard that i will get a medal in the tournament ok! Thanks^^

2009-06-14T12:57:00.007+08:00

Whoa, when was the last time i blogged???

Finally g0t time to blog~

Yah, i want to rant and rant. There's just so much injustice out in the world!

Remembered what my BMT OC told me, 'The world is cruel, man are selfish' , i guess this sentence is perfectly fits NS life.

So many 'chao keng' people, when task with an assignment, they will act 'blur' and walk away or push their responsibilities to others, why not push your monthly salary to me too!?!?

O yah, last friday i almost broke down, cause almost all the specs in my platoon went for leave and off, leaving me and one 'kengster' specs.

So of cause, most of the work are being pushed to me, and with so little time and so much things to do, i myself couldnt handle alone!

Yes, g0t scolded quite a number of times.

And here comes the killer, we lost something which belongs to the army and now we have to share the cost which is 1.7K. Fuuuccckkkk, one person is around 3-400$, is almost half of my pay! Damn it.

Went for M16 range, the system cock up, my bullet hit the target board but it dint went down, my assistant saw it too, so wasn't counted as hit.

I asked my assistant to encourage me whenever i hit the target board cause i will be damn motivated. Yeah, he did whenever i hit, and my score for that part was 12/16. That's a very very good achivement, i'm a WELL-KNOWN BOBO SHOOTER.

Range ended late, g0t asked to go one side and take off everything off for a 100% check.

Knock out the moment my head touches the pillow. It was this tiring~

Coming wednesday is Coy Prof Test, let's not screw things up alright, c'mon guys, just give them our best try and show them we can do it. :)

Had my final theory test on June 6, it was a one time passed! haha, provided i dint even take out the book and read, i just went for the trial test before i went for the actual test. Was so scare that i will fail, i had 6 unconfirm answers and to pass i can only get maximum 5 wrongs!

Was like so happy when i saw the big green PASS.

And on the same day, i went for my first practice drive too. Ok, i know i am a bit 'gan chiong' , my engine keeps stalling.

During the drive, yah, coudn't close my mouth, i dunoo why either, yeah, and the instructor tell me a few times to close my mouth in case the fly or mosquito flies in. Grrsss, damn paiseh can. LOL

But it got better, ok, let's not get complacent. Next lesson is at august, and and and, it's freaking expensive can~ 2 lessons and 160$ is gone, just like that!!!

I'm intending to go SIM for tourism and management course, not sure if i can really handle it, but will really give it a try.

To hell with IT course, haha, i'm a computer noob. Maybe outside world suits me more.

Will be another 25K gone if i really go SIM.

Or should i start off with work first after ORD or study???

Got my ass off to open a new bank account!

It's gonna be 300$++ per month and yah, by ORD, hopefully can get 5K inside.

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C.Ronaldo is going to Real Madrid, will his leaving leave a big impact on manU.

Alright, let's wait and see if there's any new transfer.

Champions of England

*Shhh, the pig is still asleep*

2009-05-03T12:58:00.007+08:00

Booked out on thurs, yahh, cause of the formation day, and CO gave us the 1/2 day off, so we went off at 3!

Headed down to city hall, had dinner and wanted to go play bball after that, but it was too late and so, was cancelled.

And and, i forg0t what i did on friday, i kept bugging my mum what i did.

I only had one program on that day and i cant remember, i played bball w my bros. Great gathering and nice sweat-out too, i wasn't feeling well so i hope by sweating out i will feel better.

I had fever on friday morning, temp rising to 37.4. Horrible, Terrible , Vegetable.

Well, at least now i am feeling much much better. Thanks for the bottle of 'miracle water'. It really helps.

O, yesterday headed down to some crab kopitiam to celebrate mother's day!

My parents are v kiasu, so early jiu celebrate, and they were taking photos of the dishes, OMG, make me damn pai seh can, like like we are foreigners. LOL.

And i cant eat cause it's v heaty plus i duno how to eat. So mama help me peel and gave me to me. *winks*

Yah, then went down to hub and then to 438.

O, and 2-0 to Manchester United. One step closer to being the champions.

Someone tried to piggy back me, hahaha.

And this picture is super super nice!

Grrsss, i cant activate my debit card, wthhhh.

You're just just desperado.

I dint know what i have done to you that that i deserved all that.

I'm just piss and not having other feelings.

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There's something i learn.

Never ever take anyone or things for granted, cause cause you'll never know when he/she will ever disappear from your life.

What i meant is, yah, treasure your love ones, and dont let them go out of your life.

Happiness is within your own hands, if you dont grab it tight, it will just be like a kite w a broken string.

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2009-04-26T12:07:00.003+08:00

Another WFFI week,

hey hey, dont think that army is very slack ok! Cause we're now preparing for formation day which is on next week, so part of our company is in the rehersal group.

I'm one of those lucky ones that are not selected!

Phew...

So, when there's no instruction from the top, we just stay in the bunk and 'iron bedsheet'

Yah, and and my same platoon specs are making me boiled. I'm freaking MAD!

One bloody 'geng-ster', upcoming there's alot of exercise and outfield and he purposely go medical centre and take alot of excuse.

Excuse upper limb, lower limb. Might as well just be a handicap specialist.

Even the men looked down on you!

O, interacted alot w the men,

I g0t 4 nicknames.

Haha, 小朋友,小鸡鸡,Alien and HITMONLEE.

Wah lau, cannot stand the men sia, this type of nickname also can think of.

Hmmmm, yesterday cooked for the first time, OMG,

Fail fail fail. LOL.

But nvm, i'll do better and yah, wont fail again.

Then after that went bugis and shop for Jian ying's birthday present.

Woooo, saw this v cool watch, took me quite some time to understand how to read the time and date.

Is not i kuku ok, is the watch too complicated.

And we saw the same exact watch at bugis village. DAMN IT, they're selling it at 35, and the sales lady say could lower till 30$. Bloody neh neh, i bought it at 40$ lor.

10 $!!!

Headed down to pasir ris, no seats throughout. Old man must sit mah, why all so inconsiderate! LOL

Stay awhile at JY's chalet, then then talk talk jiu go back, had a tiring day.

I watched Man U vs Spurs game, half time and 0-2 down, i tot that's gonna be it. Losing game.

I shut off com and sleep, but yah, just cant slp, so i woke up at 5am to check score.

And whoooo. Man U won 5-2. Hipppeeeeee..

Champions!!!

2009-04-19T16:36:00.003+08:00

It has been a WFFI week ( Wait For Further Instruction ). Been super super relax.

It's a good thing also, cause starting from tml, yah, tml we're going to be very 'xiong'.

Countless outfields, from platoon proficiency test, to company proficiency test, to combined outfields w armour, and finally the final excerise.

And this week gets better, interacted more w the mens and get to know them slightly better.

Took 1/2 day off on Tues for my BTT, it's my first time take bus from camp to CCK, and i really mean first time.

Cause every book in was always cab with JT and co, and book out was fetched out by ah bao's dad.

The distance from camp to bus stop is really freaking far. Almost 1.5 km. Phewwwwww.

Mix up my BTT timing, i thought was 1pm when it was eventually 2pm, and and.

On the screen it shows .... PASS.

Great, and coming friday jiu shi FTT le. Pray hard i pass ok. Thanks*!*

Watched 17 again!

Nice show man, if given a chance for me to go back to 2004. I dont think i will want to.

Cuz i dont want to change my current history, i'm contented w what i have now.

Yupps. =)))

Update more next week.

Back w a bang!

2009-04-11T13:16:00.003+08:00

It's been a long two months since i last post!

Someone been nagging me to update and here so i am.

Ok, let's recall what has happen since March.

So now i'm an officially a Sergeant, with 6-8 mens under me.

Well, it isnt really easy been one leader, there's so much responsibility to bear and so much so much work to do, sometimes it's just too much for me alone to handle.

Plus my men are all in NS longer then me, they are already one year soldier, though they are younger then me, but their hands-on knowledge on the ground are much higer then mine!!!

Now, i just hope i can do better.

So, yah, i broke off w ssa, ok, i apologise for all the wrong things that i have said or done.

Yah, time to plan my future, going aussie further study? Accounting and finance or hospitality and mangement? I want go into tourism, i mean, it will provide me w a lot of different job prospect w either degree!

And coming tuesday taking my BTT, ok, i know like abit slow, but what to do, serving the country and i am only free on weekends.

I want to enrich myself. Should i go on courses?

But my friday and weekends are important, that's the only time i can spend w my love one.

Things have been slightly different from now and the past,

TIME really can change alot of things* CHEERS!!!

Yupss,

Met up with Eunice Lim, such a long time since i last talked to her, yeah, went J8 for pasta.

Hmmm, not much change for her, but but, she said that i changed quite a bit.

And here is some changes she noticed in me

Darker

Fitter

More manly

Then she go buy present for friends then i notice, there's a new shop in J8, cotton on.

The shirt there not bad, considering my new top coming from there.

Then went to play 投篮机, average score of 250-300.

And it's home sweet home after that. Tired tired tired.

Yesterday was Easter's day , So, Happy Easter's day readers!

Abel booked tickets from his church and informed me after that, which leaves me no choice.

But seriously enjoyed myself , their performance was great! Till the part when the pastor started his preach, i lost all my concentration and was dreaming away, must be that Oink's fault.

There's over 200 new friends going, so that place was flooded w teenagers.

Inside the auditorium was super cold, i was freezing inside.

And after the whole show, went hong kong cafe for supper.

G0t one caucasian wink at me* HAHAHA, luckily wasnt dian dao by her. LOL.

Very tiring day for me!

And i'm having heavy head, i need more rest.

I Miss you~

2009-03-07T10:40:00.001+08:00

Time now is 1040.

I can't sleep last night, been turning and tossing. Grrrssss.

Alot of things are running through my mind.

Yeah, finally slept at 3am and i woke up at 6am again.

Morning call J cause she needs to go some 'Officer training course'. You better treat me lunch to thanks me.

Weekends Review

Now into Operator Maintenance course(OM), have to learn how to change parts of my tank and yah da yah da! Everyday 0800-1700.

Sweaty and oily after everyday course, there no fan and super oily. Kaosss.

And i hit my head while changing the oil. There's a bump on my left head. :( and it still hurts.

But after training we can do whatever we can cause we 3 stripes already. wahaha.

Basketball almost everyday. Couldn't find my form for the first 3 days, damn it. No matter how i shoot and lay-up, i just couldn't score. So pissing.

And i injured my shoulder on the 3rd day, and it was really torturing, i can't turn to the side and sleep.

Worst, my big toe nail g0t internal bleeding!

ROARS

It's a injury-prone week.

End

Met up w J yesterday to go Kino get books,bag and pants.

Wanted to get the books for V, but i think now it's not necessary anymore! I shall keep it and read so i can understand things better.

Chit chatted alot w her, cause we super long nv meet, and whenever we meet, must be something 'big' happen to either of us, and this time is ME!!!

I must go bag hunting later, else i'll have no bag to book in.

Well, somethings you dont have to elaborate much, you know i know can already!

I'll WAIT, and wait till you're ready!

No phobia for you anymore!

I dont want dont want to be your brother understand!

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Both of us dint put in alot in this relationship.

And i hope you'll find your true love once again.

Who treasures you, cherish you more than i do.

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Yupps, and i went church 2 weeks ago and here's what i absorb.

LOVES ACTUALLY.

Do NOT look base on appearance, figures.

Might sound simple, but seriously, you do not have to dress up, make up for the one you love.

I remember xiao bai wearing my tee after badminton game and (laughs)* she looks nice.

Yeah, also meeting up once or twice per week is ENOUGH.

Common thinking and ideas, communications leads to a good relationship. I dint say PERFECT, cause i am still waiting for my miss PERFECT.

What's important is quality over quantity. Right?

2009-02-28T16:42:00.025+08:00

Summary for FEB!!

Hmmm, Happy belated to botak and hong xin! (Though it's a little late)

Yeah, went over for steamboat and after that. K-box!

(Cheers to us brothers, not including the girls)

Next up is Xiaowei's birthday

~Feb is a busy month, full of birthdays!~ Lala.

Couldn't book out on friday, cause we g0tta stay back and wash tank on a SATURDAY!

I went over immediately and i was sooo dead that i knock out at 5am!

(Total knock-out)

But before that, happy celebration with the brothers and birthday girl.

Let the pictures do the talking!

From left to right-(Ming hee, Hong xin, Yong hao, Pig leg, Jason, Rui Yi)

(Ming hee's gf, Pei zhen, Rui wei, Botak and ME!!)

Omg, they bullying me!

I am surrounding by the ORDs and soon to be ORD MAN

Played Big-small

I was duper duper suay, i consecutively ate many mouthfuls of chocolate cake. I'm having phobia. LOL

*Me and Xing 爷*

*Me and birthday girl* CHEERS

Happy birthday to Abel and Vanessa

*Abel*

Hope you like the surprise that we plan for you.

And enjoy your 21st birthday man!

Stay cool dude!

*Vanessa aka bestie*

Hope your exam pass w flying colors

Enjoy your days w your lovliest yah!

Stay pretty girl!
I miss you girl* Will be waiting for you!

2009-02-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

Will blog on sat for Feb summary!

Stay tune peeps =)

Different type of people

2009-02-09T16:34:00.006+08:00

Cholerics

Always think they are right

大男人

Melancholies

Perfectionist

Phelgmatics

Shy-type

Sanguines

Open-minded

Takes initiative to start a conversion w strangers

Sanguines + Melancholies

Cholerics + Phlegmetics

&&

I found this sentence super true.

Women thrive on approval, compliments and love.
while,
Disapproval and humilation destroys.

Take care peeps.

2009-02-08T17:57:00.003+08:00

Alot of things happen in camp. SumMax next week, and further 2 more weeks later we'll be passing out as sergeant.

Yeah, plus the case of theft. Makes thing even more complicated.

Total of 250$ was stolen.

We dint had training that day! Cause cause the superior wanted to track down the culprit.

Everything off and the staff sergeant made a throughout check.

Nothing was found, and we were told to go wash tank before the next inspection takes place.

Washed one tank for 4 hours manually. Super tiring!!!

Thought that we can go home after that, but,

2nd inspection was conducted, and we were told to stripped so that they can check our d*** and a**.

Then one of them was found w money in his undies!

CB him, waste our time.

The money dint tally, g0tta stay back till the whole amount is found.

So, we sat there doing nothing for 3 BLOODY HOURS.

Reach home changed and went town for movie!

The show very lame***

And we were very tired le,

cabbed home and sleep.

Sat**

Happy birthday BOTAK & HONG XIN

Ok, they dunno about my blog, but still wish lah!

Went steamboat and K afterwards.

And they were saying i emo.

I'm not ok!

I just close my eyes and sing

And red swollen eyes due to insufficient sleep.

Sunday**

Wake up super early to join hao and botak play soccer, ok, i know i am a noob w my pair my legs, just like chicken hand duck leg.

Tired, went home and sleep for 1 hour plus then g0t disturb. Grrrsss

It's really troubling me alot.

I dont want to say goodbye to you!

But how can a rs continue w.o communication?

2009-02-01T15:37:00.011+08:00

Wedding pics!!

Drink tea ceremony

Cheers

The perfect photographer!!

Cousins in action

KTV

whose cuter

2nd post of the day!

2009-01-28T16:59:00.002+08:00

Yeah!

Too bored, so yah lor, =c

Going back in, and 3 days later i'll be out again!

zzZZz waste of time and my transportation fare, it's been increasing high this month.

And here we welcome FEB.

There will be my graduation ceremony, ok,

I'll not call my parents again, in case, just in case they put me aeroplane again. Like how they do it during my BMT time.

Friends wont be free either, it's the TESTS AND EXAMS period.

What a dread. LOL.

Jia you for those having projects, tests!

And 17th Feb faster come, i want to take my sergeant rank!

2009-01-28T12:31:00.000+08:00

Nah,

Forget it!!!

抱歉抱歉

Take care everyone out there yoh! :)

It's CHINESE NEW YEAR :)

2009-01-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year readers

So fast, another year has pass.

I dint buy any new sets of clothes, i feel there's not a need to do so and yah, i hardly get the chance to wear also other then book outs.

My parents and brother is at genting, left me , edwin and eliza homed.

Yeah, initially suppose to go eliza's hse for reunion dinner on sunday, but something happen, so was cancelled.

Played badminton on sunday morning, i looked so dead, saturday catch Man Utd 0130 match and next day i woke up at 0710. Till now i still can feel the shag-ness in me!

Went over and house visiting!

Were asking why i never bring girlfriend along again! zzZZz.

Played blackjack and yah, won money* :)

I'm going to be sooo busy on the 31st Jan, someone please save me can!!

I can't split myself into 3 and go different places!

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Please, save some dignitity for yourself, dont stood till so fucking low.

Asking her friend to date her out, so that she cant meet me!

WHAT THE FUCK YOU TRYING TO DO MAN.

Why , for fuck, you trying so hard so that we 2 cant meet.

Will that make you feel any better?

If i dont meet her again, contact her again. I think you'll get so high that you cant sleep ass..

Jump down from your building man, wake up your ignorant and stupid idea.

Your thinking is way way childish!!

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I need to confirm what i really want this time?

You~
fill~
every~
corner~
of~
my~
heart!

2009-01-09T22:23:00.004+08:00

Yeah, alot of things are going to change from now on.

I noticed alot of things too, ok, it shall not be explained. I am lazy*

Yupps, started driving le, initially was scare lah, cause first time driving and also i dont have the experience as more then half already have their driving license, so driving tank should not be a problem to them.

Hur hur, i mounted on the tank then do as instructed, keep stepping on the parking brake. Die also cannot let go!

Yeah and after i release the brake, the vehicle started moving on cause it's automatic.

Gear up, step harder on the accelerator and the tank moves, 20-25km/hr.

It's a total different feeling when you're the in the first person view and second person view.

Nice experience and feeling, monday g0nna drive again. Weeeee

F**king so many steps lah, and i g0t to do this one by one and show the instructors.

and this is just the starting,

i haven list the cutting-off, taking off and stopping procedure.

And after so many tries,

I FINALLY PASS MY SOC TEST! WOOOOOHOOOOOO

9mins 41sec,

Clearing 11 obstacles and running a distance of 1400m.

Yah, no more SOC for this year. Cheers*
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To vanessa:

The route to your heart wasn't an easy one,
We have been through alot to where we are now!
I cherish every single moments w you,
Caring and loving you is what i have to do.
Yah, of cause at times,i am at fault.
But that's because i care for you understand!
I stop all my assumptions!

I LOVE YOU DEAR*

2009-01-04T14:58:00.003+08:00

W.E.L.L

It's another unfruitful weekend.

Recalls*

Friday late book out cause have to do stores for monday live firing.

No more taking of guns and shoot, for us now is, taking live mines and firing it off.

Chances of dying is much much higher!

Laughs*

Sometimes i really hope i get injured then see how many people would really be there and care for me.

Touch wood**

Yah, went play bball on fri, after ah bao's dad drop me at amk, i ran as fast as i could to the court.

Pig leg say g0t alot of people.

And so suay, my first game, and i fall down and hurt my back. Grrrs!

Ha,

Van bestie says she would come and take care of me if i am injured or sick, so touched.

But provided she has no more assignments!!!!

Zzzzzz. HAHA

But i am still happy.

I'm finishing HOT SHOT, woooo, it's getting more and more exciting.

Ok, shall not spoil the show.

Who has g0t the song 'Cause i believe'

Can someone send me?

It's vvvvvvv nice!

Sat went bball again, ok, gonna be nagged soon, i dont care abt my injuries lah, it's not serious.

And i think i have to change shoe le, this pair keep making me fall down and slip like nobody business.

I MISS HER,

BUT SO WHAT!

WHAT MORE CAN I DO?

I HAVE GIVEN MY BEST.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-01-01T13:18:00.015+08:00

It ended with a kiss : MUACKS

Well,

NEW YEAR NEW RESOLUTIONS.

LET'S HOPE THIS YEAR WILL BE A BETTER YEAR MAN.

To all my friends, bestie!

All the best in the coming years.

2009 =)

Met up w matt to find abel at his church, and we hor-lan , so ya, we were in the middle of the road wishing one another HNY. Laughs

Then reach there around 1220, wanted to settle my stomach first, cause i haven eat dinner.

They idle at the church till 1am+, my stomach already calling the SOS number. LOL

Went airport, pretty lame i know, but that's the destination they decided, so we follow suit.

Had mac, since i enter amour camp, i had not eaten any fast food.

Chit-chatted alot. We seems to have alot to talk about even though we're like meeting everyweek.

Saying how dumb i was, matt how emotional and abel not forgetting about tammi.

Slept at the airport while waiting for abel's sister.

It was such a tiring day, earlier on the day still g0t SOC.

AND AND

I FINALLY PASS! CONGRATS ALAN. Heeeeeeeee

Well, i will be happy!

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我要离去别再哭泣,不要伤心请你相信我

Lovessss!!!

2008-12-21T20:18:00.005+08:00

I hope you like da present sweet...

I really enjoy my day with you though it's sooooooooo short.

Another date pretty please.

Laughs.....

**Simple message from you brightens my day!**

Mrs van van~~ :D

Lovessssss!!

2008-12-21T20:18:00.001+08:00

2008-12-20T12:47:00.004+08:00

Decision making time~

Most probably i will go sign on!

It's gonna be a tough choice.

I need time to think through it. Allow me!

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Advanced Merry Christmas.

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Till i have made up my decisions then your shall see me again!

G0tcha?

Summary of the year 2008**

2008-12-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

Last entry of the year

Jan

Was still in the midst of FYPJ(Final year project), well, was doing project on biology, cells and DNA.

It was always a dream for me to know more about biology and business management cause i have interest, if not i would have taken finance course.

I remembered me as the only person out the team of 4 who had studied biology, so , yah, lecturer kept picking me, nagging at me whenever i couldnt answer his questions.

You dont expect me to store everything in my memory right! Grrrssss*

Feb

Dateline was closing in, was rushing for this project and yeah, conflicts happen!

On the day of presentation, my biology teacher and my FYP lecturer was the marker, they were disappointed with my work, it wasnt one the best piece of work.

Had to find friends to have lunch with me, i wasnt really close with people during secondary and poly time.

March

Finally graduation, had to wear that robe, super long, but but, g0t people say i look shuai lah. Laughs.

And i met maureen, say hi and walked off* Sounds cool hur, night celebration with my classmates and home sweet home!

O, and i met this girl during my work time at dome*

超可爱的女生!!

She was my 2nd trainee, but the first female. Yah, alittle not confident, plus i was shy.

LOL

Yup, after my manager introduce her to the surrounding, handed her back to me, then i told her what are the things to do, blah blah blah!!

I scare she forgot, so i wrote down the list of items to do for closing.

Super good trainer right!

满街都是la

Walked with her to the bus stop, waited for her to board the bus before i board.

Yup I dunno why either, but i was looking forward to her next working day.

Yes, she always wear the same type of top and one pair of aunty shoe, i called her aunty for that and she beat me!

This time round, board on the same bus, read magazine throughout the journey, yah, i alighted halfway but we exchange sms like we dint leave one another.

Another time, we walked from interchange to her house!

Pretty far journey, almost an hour to reach, think we walked the wrong way.

But was sooooo sweet, till now i still remember. We were sharing one ice-cream!

She send me this message which made me cant slp!

Mrs piggy likes mr piggy ok!!

Soon our hand interlock with one another!

Huggies**

April

I ask her to be my girlfriend, and she agreed!

*HAPPY*

Greatest moment of my life! I found my love~

Having her alone sums up the month!

Cause you made me feel that love is sweet, so i wanna call you sweetheart ^^

0418

I re-read all the messages you sent me, it made me smile to myself.

I love you too!

May

I quit dome cause g0tta go NS the next month , so , yah, pack stuff for NS, while working for show co.

Worked for Harlem yu, Click 5 and Zhang dong liang!

Earn quite a bit. Yes.

June

Enlisted to army, i dint know much about which company is shiok or relax kind, i just hope that one of my friend is in the same coy.

That's all i ask! And ah wai same platoon with me!

Good.

In the beginning wasnt really used to the timing, waking up at 5am+ and sleep at 2230.

My buddy was good, so was my section mates! Get along well, except for some wierdos!.

Wearing white to bed, and worst still, there was once, he woke up ard 4am to pray. F*** , scare the shit out of me!

Training was tough, of cause! I only had this never say this attitude in me, i would never give up easily!

July

Nothing much happen during this month i guess,

First monthsary, still honeymoon period. But i'm loving it.

Eric bought her girlfriend home! Like finally he's attached after soooooooooo long.

August

Ns bro JQ's girlfriend pass away. Was of cause sad, seeing him crying alone in bunk, not eating. We were worried!

Sep

It's my birthday! But i was sick, saddening, and sweetheart was overseas enjoying her shopping trips.

Honey moon period over, start of arguements. Awww, hate it when i quarrel with sweetheart.

Training in tekong over, after 3 months!

We got to go our seperate ways now. Into new unit.

First time went clubbing, to celebrate matt's birthday, and they down me with hard liquor, dint stay for long, went off ard 2am.

Oct

Things g0t worse, i actually do things that i shouldnt have done! **Beats me**

Piles of reports piling high on her, and i wasnt considerate enough to think for her.

You screw yourself man!

Went SISPEC for further training. Another siong company. So fish, always get the tough de.

A new make-over!

Nov

Met up with poly mates for drink, voldka one bottle, and i drink to upp my drinking skills.

Tests test test, and g0t so stress, that i have sleepless night almost everyday! and having people to piss me off during training.

F*** off.

Dec

I had alot of wierd dreams during this month, i dreamt that my love pass away(I'm sorry, but i dont mean to curse you) , i woke up in sweat and i text her a good night, hoping she will reply and let me know she's fine, but her phone spoil. =(((

Other dreams about coffin, fishes and i g0t a feeling that something bad is gonna happen to me! So if anything really happens to me!

Then you guys must take care ok, peace for your ears, no more me nagging!! Buzz Buzz Buzz.

Till now , my mind is full of your images!

Well, i am going to apply for my driving license and settle my further studies thing by this year.

I need to have a target to dream for!

*Sacrifices are part of life*
*When you lose something, you gain something in return*

2008-11-30T12:09:00.019+08:00

Beware, long post ahead

2 more weeks down, 2 more to go!

You can do it baby boy~

Met up with abel, matt for a make-over!

Then soon jason came and join us too.

Yup, so went haji lane to look at the designer's clothes and shoes!

Ya, bought myself a pair of shoe and abel bought himsel a jacket.

Jacket shall stay at my house until next month then he can bring it home.

Ha, whole day spent up to 200$. Darn, first time i spent so much in a day just for shopping.

And there's pretty much clothing for ladies too~ Vannie interested to go take and take a look after CT. Then can buy some for you, time to pamper my little sweetheart.

Me and lim abel

The 4 musketeers I

The 4 musketeers II (Abel damn stress)

The 4 musketeers III

God knows what abel is doing, trying to show off his abps.

Yup, then head down to orchard and continue on my shopping spree, they totally want me to have a new change-over sia, bringing me to all those zara, topman to see clothes and bottoms.

Then bought one skinnies from zara and plain top from topman, people look at me with wierd eyes, cause i was holding so many packets of bags!

Halfway through, abel's dad had an accident at home, and he rushed home, prayed hard for his dad. He's gotta be fine alright bro!

And you're the first person i thought of when i wore my new set of clothes ^^

Jeff and his clubbing girlfriend join us soon after. Then head down to cine and consume our dinner.

Fred perry's shirt cost a bomb, no way am i going to buy that man!!!

Parted with them, went over to J house, take story book and went home.

Titled: 5 people you meet in heaven and the host.

Meaningful book, i learn quite alot from one of the book.

It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them.

Last friday demolition live firing, any mistakes will take away our life, so the officiers were pretty harsh on us, i was one of the assistant and firer for 2 firing. Assistant part was easy.

Then when it came to the firer part, i cock up and g0t scolded from start to end. Wah, Sobx ):

Last night went out with polymates, joshua, mei and ah fan. It's been really long since i last saw them, maybe the last time was graduation day,which is 8 months ago.

Had dinner at HK cafe and then walked around before finding a pub and settle down.

Ordered volka then then then, play cards also.

I drank quite alot lah, but luckily i was still sober. Wanted to call dear and tell her how much i miss her, but but she sleep le. Cuddling like a little baby, my dar dar shi ke ai de lor.

Basket Mei dint eat alot during dinner then she drink alcohol, g0t gastric pain, and was puking like mad

And so suddenly, she bite my arm. Goodness sake, it's blueblack now! Took night-rider back and i reach home around 4++am.

Will be meeting ah fan later, she's confused. Just follow your heart.

I hate to be compared and i hate comparing you with another person, cause i know you're tried your best and i am contented. You're uniquely special in your own way and no one can ever replace you. NEVER

Memories between us will never be taken away or erased off by anyone. The time spent together was memorable, i will never forget the fights we had, how you would see me play basketball and wipe my sweat after every game, how we would cuddle one another in threate when you're cold, sniggle your way into my arms. I yearn for it.

I had dreams about you.

Those were the sweet moments we and i remember them all.Of cause, we must continue to create more memories for us!

大白目 love story will not end here*

2008-11-16T16:24:00.004+08:00

The great essentials of happiness are :

Something to do

Something to love

Something to hope for

2008-11-16T11:32:00.016+08:00

Well, had an interview with sergeant Martin on the day i booked in! About my performance and peer appraisal in SISPEC.

Yes, he say i g0tta improve on my personal attitude and stuff, like watching my actions and language!

Given the rating from my section mates, i am rated as one of the lowest( Am i really that bad, as a friend, leader and everything?)

From his prediction, it could be down to my arrogance and how i speak to my mates, asking them to do things when things dont go right! Or maybe other factors contributing to my rating.

No one knows why they do that, except for themselves~

Yah, of cause i was affected by them, i thought whatever i do or say was for their good, but, NONO, i am wrong.

Praises comes in too. Enthusiasm, loud voice and how i handle situation even though i am not given any appointment.

However, my weakness could be a killer, no matter how good i am, my flaws will be noted by everyone and everyone will start saying behind my back how bastard i can be.

Ok, this brings back memories when i was in Sec 5...

Brrrsssss~~~

Fine, maybe i should tone down and reflect on my own actions!

**************

Yeah, i am out of BSLC( Basic section leader course) , going to another phrase of new training.

COMBAT ENGINEER!

New life, hopefully i can adapt yah! Most importantly, good bed buddies!

And is so near my house! Nee soon camp.

More time for baby maybe? Less travelling time!

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Walked 28km road march before i graduate.

So long nv go for road march, and this march is like killing me~

Full Battle Order, rifle! God!!

I'm aching all over, and and, i have been sneezing since i start the road march.

Are you, YOU, yoU missing me?

Yeah, it all starts now!

Part and parcel of growing up~

I must learn too.

Lifetime after lifetime after lifetime. Will you?

2008-11-10T21:38:00.008+08:00

Everything happens for a reason!

Ok, i admit it's my fault for thinking that , that is for me, however it is not!

Yah, since i've promised you not to think about it anymore. Then i shall not!

Yupp yupp.

No more stressing of darbby. Reports are piling high on her. Must understand understand~~

Trust and compromise are very very very important.

I know talking without actions are nothing, let me prove it.

I really love you, vanessa!

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Watched this channel 8 show, this girl g0t fever at the age of 21, and it lasted till she g0t brain damage. Yah, now suffering for 6 years, bed-ridden and have fits at times.

My god, i almost cried out.

2008-11-10T10:37:00.005+08:00

Thanks dear!

Baby alan totally hearts it <3s

2008-11-09T22:35:00.004+08:00

Ate at swensen's.

While waiting for her, ordered cheese sticks and calamari first. Ok, it's my duty for bf to wait for gf mah.

Then shared one set of F&C.

And she dint want me to feed her, she say my food g0t poison. WTHHHH!!

I dint talk much~

Topic was mostly abt mik. Ok, used to it le, quite curious to know more abt him too. Since we both stay so near each other, but never had the chance to see him in person.

Yah,

Dear was soooo tired, she kept yawning throughout the meal and on her way to buy frozen strawberry and the alchohol for her ear.

I counted the number of times she yawned. At least 10+ times throughout the whole evening.

*sayang sayang*

I hugged her, she dint hug me back. =(

Baby's tired. I can understand. =)))

You owe me many many hugs, many many kiss.

好久好久

It seems so long, since we sit down in the garden and have a heart to heart talk , you saying how much you miss me, how much you love me.

How i wish darl darl has lesser of reports to do, then can have time for me, friends and her important sleeps and her entertainment time.

Since musical box plan fails, then proceed on with plan B, one week to do it.

Chatted with matt, since he has to spend his army days at home after he injured his leg.

Laughs,

Tactics to make one treasure you more~!

Quite true, i believe too.

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I want to lead a simple life,

I don't request alot,

loving wife,

简单温馨,

24/7 loving hubby to my love wifey.

I cant promise you that i will be pocket full of cash, cards.

What i can promise you is that,

A heart that only contains you,

To lend you a shoulder when you need it,

When you're weak, i will be your pillar of strength.

When you're blind, i will be your eyes.

When you're deaf, i will be your ears.

2008-11-09T16:57:00.016+08:00

OMG. So many to choose from.

DOCOMO DOCOMO

Docomo Prime Series

Docomo Pro Series

Docomo Smart Series

Docomo Style Series

906i Series

Which is it???

2008-11-09T01:20:00.002+08:00

Rot the whole noon, went out with J in the evening.

J say i am getting skinnier. From far, i look like a bamboo. Am i that skinny!!~~

Searching for my present~~

I search online for it first, but there wasnt anything close to it.

So personally went down to TAKA and PS to see if they have the design that i desired.

~SAD~ they do not have what i want.

But i saw some others quite nice, shall go and think about it before buying it.

Ate burger king, and yeah, 2 guys sat beside us, and dont know how they drink water also, drink till their drink spill on me, and i *gong gong* sit there. Fish~

Met botak and ah hee, urghh, MAN U LOST. BOOOOOOOO

**
And time flies really fast hur, another 9 more days~ Yah, many more more months to come.

No matter how ugly, how fat you become. You will always be my VANESSA.

I LOVE SILLY VSSA.

**

2008-11-08T09:39:00.002+08:00

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I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,
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I'm sorry.I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry,

2008-11-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

Field camps after field camps, i think i slept less then 30hours in this two weeks. Omg, cannot imagine how i go through all this shit.

Yah, first day had navigation test.

Woke up at 4am, and set off only at 7am+.

Irritating~~

Ok, and i carried the signal set which weighs around 8kg and walk close to 7km with rifle and the LBV which weighs another 8kg. WTF, my team mates dint help me take, he's a bastard. I almost black-out when i reach the check point.

O, and last night, i saw shooting star, quickly made a wish, hopes my wish comes true, and i am one lucky guy who sees the star. Whoooo, and i really see a wild boar, it's really fucking BIG.

If you let her go, and she comes back, she destined for you. Not anyone else.

Had chat with hakim and zx before we sleep, they were complaining that i sleep 14hours out of 24 hours. Grrrssss. I worked hard during the 10 hours ok!

And it rained during the 1st ,3rd and 4th day, so g0t drenched. I am feeling abit feverish and giddy now and then. Worst till, they never give us new sets of uniform to change, and i was shivering throughout the night.

Shall go see doctor on sunday and see can take mc anot.

如果要走,请你记得我

2008-11-02T11:44:00.005+08:00

I duno how i g0t this feeling either, but somehow somehow , i just dont feel comfortable!

It's affecting me badly!

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

如果没有了你,
我该如何往下走,
那一秒钟有没有发现我倔强里的问候,
怎么劝我放手在这一切之后.

Mabye fate is playing a trick on me.

I hate this game, i have already plug in my heart into this game of yours and now you cant just kick me out of it.

你心里理想情人是否会有我的份?

Writer is feeling down..

2008-11-02T11:44:00.001+08:00

2008-10-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

Due to boredness , i bought this book to entertain myself.

The Virgo book, damn, i cant upload picture, stupid internet.

Also, this week and next week gonna be a sad sad week for me!

Shall not explain. It's gonna be a hard and tiring week ahead.

Well, i slack the whole of today, early 7am woke up go eat breakfast with my family. Then read papers read till halfway and i fell asleep, just like that. And i drool a little, must have dreamt of food or princess.

OK, hope your outing with him is a happy one, it is not easy to forget someone, i tried . Been that done that, so i can understand the feeling you're going through.

Shhhh..
I really love my notice board.

2008-10-27T09:08:00.001+08:00

You're very much important to me, i dont want to leave you yah.

I love you. :)

2008-10-26T18:54:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was supposed to be an enjoyable night at mt faber, yet , it turns out to be a horrible night for me and vanessa!

I might have said things that aint pleasant to your ears, but, i dint want to lie to you! Cause you dont like to be lied , that's what i might do, if a pretty girl comes talking to me. I'm just saying i might, given my character.

Ok, there goes our night!

And you ignored me throughout the whole journey. Fine with me, dint wait for me to board the LRT, and go into the lift, making me like a fool. Ok, i know you aint in your best mood.

Took me almost 2 hours to walk home, alot alot went through my mind.

Unknowingly, my eye frame was wet.

I went home straight and had no mood for anything!

Stare blankly at my phone, it did not ring, up till this moment.

I will wait till you have the mood to tell me what happen.

I need time for myself too. Tired of life, i need a break.

Yes, i know that at times, i am taken my granted.

always there for friends whenever they need a ear ,

then when at times when i need someone, no one is there.

It's ok, i have accepted fate! this is how i am going to live my life.

Going to update my diary again, all the mess!

Hais, You wont see me le.

2008-10-25T00:56:00.002+08:00

Hapy belated 6th monthsary to ALAN & VANESSA (AL.SSA)

Ok, i haven get the pictures yet, tml shall go steal from vannie!

Yeah, then can upload upload, tml shall take more pictures with silly again.

Yah, thanks for the present, totally hearts it. I see the amount of work you put it. Loves Loves ^^

Tml then continue beh, i am off to sleep. Not enough rest!

2008-10-12T00:59:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiiiii.

Went out with dar and pamela to eat steamboat with my brothers!!

Ok, yea, lots of chat , fun and laughter.

And and omgggg, dear can really eat alot alot hur, non-stop. Laughs

Reason behind it -- == I am with her!

And here's my darling

ke ai mah?

And this are our caps! Nice?

I love superwoman,
Superwoman loves me.

2008-10-11T14:17:00.002+08:00

New look , thanks to darling VANESSA.

Yeah, suits me alot.

And you take note that i like shohoku and man utd.

wahaha, happy happy.

Simple and nice!

Thank you!!

But you made a mistake, ok, u shall go and find out yourself.

**
**
I missed the time in BMT, maybe the life in SISPEC , i still haven get used to it.

Missed all the fun and laughter , and also, where we get tekan together and after that still laugh about it. The scolding of sergeants , bathing together , and splashing of really cold water when you're in the middle of your bathing session still lingers in my mind.

Night talk session, ok, guys are more open!!

And meeting of you guys on weekends although we've been like seeing each other for the past 5 days. Spending time more then our own girlfriends.

Yeah, i simply miss you guys, compared to the one in SISPEC. YOU'RE THE BEST MAN!!

**
**

Last night at this celebration at chervons, is near IMM lah.

Very tired already!!

Early morning had Navigation test, follow by Navigation practical. Kaox.

Imagine g0t to climb up hills just to do the test.

FU*K..

and after that still g0t speed training.

More ****

Very very zzzZZZ.

**
**

Thank you baby, appreciated.

wrote by enemy

2008-10-08T02:16:00.002+08:00

tagboard you have to make yourselves
hope u dun find this skin too gay
spend me more than 6 hours
=(((((((((((((((
how i wish i won't log in into your account
nvm, i shall pretend i didn't see anything
if u want back ur old skin it's with me.

2008-10-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

I had this strange dream,

I remembered as ' Hahas, friends forever. 25-30'

I'm not sure what it means, but when i woke up, i quickly check if i do receive this message.

Both happy and sad when i see nothing!

Yah, had dinner with mama , and she say i getting darker!

And guess it's perhaps the sports day, i am getting sunburn, and feeling hot.

The feverish feeling is back.

After dinner, reach home jiu sleep le. Then ah hee call me and ask me if i want go down s11 at around 12plus to watch MAN U game. I was in the middle of my sleep.

Too tired to go down also.

2008-10-04T18:01:00.003+08:00

**
Sun
**

Went to take family photo. Yah, at upper serangoon there. I remembered the previous night i slept quite late, was watching tv till 4 i think. Then early morning 8plus g0t woke up by my father again!!

Yah, slowly crawl out of my bed and then get ready cause we g0t to reach the studio by 1230.

Ok, very tiring. Shall not say the procedure, and and i think i look quite cool with the bladzer on huh. Hai man shuai de lah.

And we head to bukit timah there and eat, food stall was recommended. So imagine 4 guys wearing long button sleeve walking around. Includes my mother also.

Then went home rest , then book in again! Sianxxxxxxxx

**
BSLC days
**

Nothing much to say, everyday is the same. Sleep late, wake up early, sleeps in lecture , physical training and lunch in the cook house.

**
Sat
**

Initially supposed to have guard duty after sports day, then i change finish le, about to go, then i forget take something so headed back to company line. And they told me this good news, no need do duty ler, change to civi clothing and book out. !! woooo.

But also tiring lah, keep wanting to sleep, but luckily baby's msg made me stay awake and not overshot stations.

Today had sports day too, i participated in the basketball. Not in the first team though. Cause the selection of people sucks!!

First team was a mess lah, seriously. G0t pressurised from start. 2nd half i was in, tgt with alvin and de cruz. Then better, but not enough time, in the end lost 17-22. And i miss 2 free throws. Saddddddddd.

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For vssa
**

I am appreciative of all the little things u have done for me.

Calling me dear, darl darl, baby, lao gong and many more.

I kept all the sweet messages send by you.

True that we cant go back to the past,

But we can improved from where we are now!

I am slowly knowing more about you, isnt it.

I might seem not caring , but i cared for you ok!

Worried that you're not eating your meals, not drinking enough water and fall sick. Cause i wont be there to look after you and buy u herbal tea to drink.

OK, yes, you are ye man. But it's instill in you, and makes u special.

And

I LOVE YOU SO...

2008-10-01T11:25:00.002+08:00

Well well,

As your know i am in Sispec , then after that post to unit and after that i will get my sergeant rank. Yeah

And SISPEC stands for Suffer In Silence Plus Extra Confinement.

Ok, i am into Charlie coy, one of those you would never want to get in are, Alpha, Bravo and Charlie, they are the legendary 'xiong' coy.

And in BMTC i also kenna the Ninja coy, whenever people hear NINJA, they would be like, wah, you suay lah. Laughs

Now everyday wake up around 435, go wash up and slowly prepare for my morning 5BX, but for me is 50BX!!! Then after go for my 3KM run, and alot alot of physical training.

**
Sat
**

Went down jurong chevrons to get my ns stuff, wtfish, queue for 2 hours plus then g0t all my things ready. Then only had my blunch at 3++. Hungry.

And night time went airport and fetch silly home.

**
Sun
**

Went out with darling , yeah, gave her the presents i owe her for a long long long time. There's the sweet she loves, the star star necklace, the ring she likes(but somehow, i still buy the wrong one) Boo Boo.

Ok, then head down to Cathay to watch My best friend girl, not a bad show lah.
Before the show starts, walk over to PS to buy box for baby's bangle and cosmetic stuff, i swear, damn alot. HAHA.

Then after that send her home , and yah, i rushed home, caused i g0tta book in. Oops*

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Last night
**

Went over meet silly supposing for dinner, then she carry on without me, somemore eat KFC. Da pi pi wor.

Ok, then went down , buy some biscuits to eat, and then proceed to the secret garden . Ok, had a very long talk, ya, told me what happen to she and mkt. And then we analyse the situation and in the end still cannot get a best answer.

And it's the first time , i see her eye frame wet, i wont know what to do when someone cries, bu zhi shuo cuo. LOL.

Then saw her brother and sis-in-law, think they go hotdate after their children are asleep.

Yeah, then i accompied her go up, drink water , msn awhile then i went home. Soooooo tired. i knock out by 2.

Good rest.

Yeah, ai ni ai ni lah.

2008-09-19T09:21:00.003+08:00

Yes, i am into SISPEC. Goooooooddie, i pray hard and long.

finally.

I AM HAPPY

2008-09-19T09:21:00.002+08:00

Ok, i am very disappointed.!!

30 more mins to my new posting.. I shall wait here, and after i get my posting then i wont online for the rest of the week le.

Yup, yesterday went down 438 to play bball, though i have yet to recover fully. Till halfway, i was feeling giddiness and out of breathe yah, and no one to replace me, cause everyone has a team already. So endure through the game.

Fucking headache, the pain is like gonna kill me anytime. arghhh, faster let me die then.

Hai, nothing much to write further. byebye

2008-09-17T11:25:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

miss your physical presence,
miss your smooth hair,
miss the way your eye will make contact with mine,
miss the way you smile, your 2 little teeth,
miss the smell on your body,
miss the way we would tickle each other,
miss the sweet messages from you everyday,
miss the time whereby we will go shopping for decoration purposes,
miss watching movie with you,
miss taking photo with you,
miss you watching me play psp,
miss the way we hug one another,
miss the way our lip will connect together,
and of cause, the ups and downs that we have gone through for this 4 months.

Simply, I MISS YOU VANESSA.

2008-09-16T12:33:00.002+08:00

For the hurt i have cause, i truly regretted. I know i haven been a good boyfriend. Taking you for granted and stuff.

I want to cherish you, treasure you.

Can i?

2008-09-15T17:43:00.002+08:00

I'm the world most bad bad boyfriend one can find.

I took you from granted, never cherish you, never treasure you.

You will never treasure it until you lost it. Yeah, i'm sorry baby!!

I know myself that i do not have a excellent memory, i tend to forget alot of things, like maybe, the questions i have asked before and the things you have said. i'll try and remember all the words you have said ok!~~

Yah, and i miss you badly, real real bad.

Though i say i missed quarrelling with you, i did not really wish for that to happen, and this quarrel really affects you and me.

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i'm bed-ridden, something happen after my birthday and well, not say anymore! going to take medicine soon and sleep

2008-09-13T08:57:00.003+08:00

Good morning,

will be disappearing for a few days!

disappointed~~~

Ok, take a look:: @_@

Taken with my ns cap!

Nice hur~

Yeah, and this pic goes into my port-forlio.

Wierd, i cant seem to upload my pop pictures!

2008-09-10T09:53:00.002+08:00

June 6:

After book out, went home bathe changed and went over to hong xin's house for BBQ, was v rush luh, cause we were the last to book out from tekong and upon reaching the ferry terminal, the bus were late! KAOX.

Then reach home ard 4++. Frantic pace. I was at riverale mall by 6.

Yeah, and if darl was in singapore, you would have met all my 438 brothers! and the gathering place is damn near your house, u dont have to walk. I could have carried you there!

Yup, started wacking on those foods, i dint eat alot. Not much appetite.

And chatted alot.

People attented was: Hao, ming xi and gf, hong xin and gf, botak and gf and rui ping!

Vanessa, you get a chance to meet them, i have arranged for them out for steamboat when u r back ok??

Then was thinking what to do after eating, would it be a K-singing or a Mahjong. In the end decided on mahjong and people 'yi ge yi ge hui jia' . Laughs.

First was ming xi and co, cause his gf has to go over to his house and print something.

Followed up was botak and co, xiao wei wasnt feeling good ya.

So we 4 carried on with the game , played for the fun of it, though in the beginning we say to play 20-40c. haha

Hao cabbed home with me. Thankssss.

June 7
Booked in v early. And i dint eat anything the whole day, so stomach was grumbling and plus i am late, g0t abel's mum to fetch me there.

Was disappointed cause my parents couldnt be there for my POP parade, NO ONE WAS THERE!!

What's the point of me training so hard, stand under the bloody hot sun for , carrying the superweight bag.

I could have fall out for the whole parade and only enter the 2nd time.

WTFish right! Felt like crying at the point. But i held back.

Whooo, was like havoc, hugging one another! Shouting .. POP POP loh.

Yeah, board the ferry, then bus and cabbed home. Stupid driver. Want earn more money then go one big round. Ass, and i g0t to walk more distance then usual.

And and my egg tart dropped on the floor, =(

Pictures of POP will be posted next entry!!

Had a little chat with maur, yeah, everything cleared.

Baby, will get you all the details when u r back ok!

I'm going out. Blog later

2008-08-31T16:35:00.003+08:00

Yeeeah, 2 more weeks to Passing Out Parade.

Which means i dont have to go back to Tekong anymore!

har,

and i might even have a chance to be MP( military police) whooo, good!

But have to go through a lot of interviews and selections! Hope i get in. hehe

Yup, and for the 11 weeks i have been in BTM, this week's bookout is the one i most looked forward to!

Cause vannie says she wants to fetch me from there then proceed to my house before we go for our hotdate. HAHA

In the end, i went over her house and fetch her instead.

I AM BAI FEN BAI BOYFRIEND OK.

cabbed home, and she was complaining she v tired. lol, sleep so much still tired, si bai mu o

Yeah, she rested while i go bathe and wash my clothes.

* closed door scenes* Laughs

Was planning where we want to go that day lah, dont xiang y y !

Decision was to catch cyborg she , cause there's no much show to watch.

Yeah, so first went New York New York to have our blunch at around 1520, darl was so hungry, i heard her grumbling. LOL

Yup, the cappucino mushroom soup there is a DIE DIE MUST TRY appetizer , rate 8.5/10.

Even better than the one at dome!~~~

Yeah, also had buffalo wings .

Here comes the main course.
Vannie's BBQ sparerib: Undefined, pictures at van there.

Alan's Jiggy piggy: Undefined too.

Of cause mine looks alot alot more nicer.

..................................

Head down to PS for our show, and the assistant tell us , if we want to catch the show, we have to be seperated.

WTFiiiisssshhhh,

of cause that is a NONO, how can u split up a couple and watch movie,

so we watch 12 lotus instead. Har, i thought darl wont watch this kind of singapore base show!

And and , in case you dunno.

The director of 12 lotus is my neighbour, and the father of royston tan is vannie's father sworn brother. Complicated hur.

Pretty sadding the show, tired at the same time lah, overall NICE movie. Singapore show always make me about to drop tears.

We g0t 2 hours before the show starts, walk walk, shop shop, went into daiso for nearly 45 minutes, looking at displays, i want my house to be of blue and pink displays.

Went into this shop, one side is for all the gift and the other side is all about sex stuff de.G0t alot of funny stuff lah, g0t sex dice, sex monopoly and games like that.

''Evil evil''

Then went to shop for pakling's present.

I swear next time i buy popcorn, i dont want salty poppies anymore. Not nice not nice~~~~

Boooooo, hope u can find the jumper that u're in loved with?!
Monday is coming soon,

Went to have pasta, cause we 2 were freaking cold and we needed hot stuff,Ordered the al funghi, creamy mushroom and the mushroom soup,

Of cause the standard of the soup cannot be compared to the one in NYNY.

And piggy, must eat more alright, even though u might not have appetite, but try to eat alittle hao ma?

I ask her go my house stay, she say i shen jing bing! hahaha.
Next time hur hur.

ssssssss0000000000000 tired, but we still went to the secret garden and chitchat. Then ''sian''called and she g0tta go home. O , marks the end of the hot date.

I dint want the day to end so early, i want the time to stop there.
wo shi xing fu de.
I enjoyed myself.
Ai ni o, darfy

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What's so good about you, and stop saying how good she was ok, she let me down in the first place, stop saying till she's like an angel. Fuck it.

Dont make me piss off, one more word and i will swear at you.

2008-08-24T08:26:00.002+08:00

Back from sit-test, and yes, this will be my last and final huddle before i pass out from tekong!! Hooray, 3 more weeks and we'll be through and also i can celebrate as much as i want.

3 bad days for us, keep raining, so we were like stuck in the rain all the time. Worst of all, slept till half way then i started pouring. We guys faster wake up pack our stuff and hurried to the training shed. WTFish right!

Idiotic bastards. Make me keep running, abrasions everywhere lah, especially my hips, think i g0t a real big BIG abrasion, and my hands and legs are injured. YES! I DONT WANT TO CARE ANYMORE~~

Grrss, and before i went sit-test,

I dint msg vannie for 4 days, 4 days ok! And she dint msg me as well.

She dint miss me afterall i guess, i am better, at least she appears in my dreams and i think of her whenever i am stoning! LOL.

Brrrrrrrsssssssssss.

Cold cold cold cold cold...

2008-08-16T18:03:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, had a pretty relaxing training schedule this week, and i hardly participate because i g0t diarrhoea. Luckily stopped already, else i will have a terrible weekend.

Yup, booked out this friday cause next week we have to stay back for our last major event then everything after that will be super easy! Heard from the rest, we are booking out on sat late night if not sunday morning!! Siannnnn

Yup, i have sorted out my thinking. I'm going to study another skill , so now still considering to choose Diploma in c-s or diploma in p&b! I have always admired them, they look kind of stylish! Laughs.

I will not reveal what they are!

Or maybe go Uni to continue study, but definitely not related to IT, i am not interested at all~~

Ate chawamushi, udon with tempura with silly!!

She ate salmon rice! looks tasty har. Drool drool..

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What if!!!

You cant escape now!!

And i want mahjong mahjong

And best of luck for your exams babe.

2008-08-09T17:21:00.008+08:00

From tarzan back to normal self.

Had field camp since sat to thurs,

Shall not reveal too much details, cause we are not allowed to!

First day, from our company, we walked a total distance of 8km, together with our LBV(7kg), rifle(4.4kg) and the field pack(10+kg). Interval of 2km, we were given a 5-10 mins rest.

Super shag can~

Back ache, shoulder ache, waist ache , practically everywhere aching lah. LOL.

Finally reach the camp site, was ~ Whooooo.

G0t to build basha tent, take us quite long, g0t to align with the one in front. Yeah, was like keep pulling in and out of the pegs!

Night fall, i hardly experience night without light, even though had camps with NPCC, i still can see lights around, but this camp, i couldnt even see my hand after 8.

Details shall not say much, lazy to elaborate also!

After 2 days, shift house, walked another 2km to our next destination.

The 3rd day morning, as soon as the sun rise, we started to dig our shellscript, length is your body lying position and height around shin there! WTFish right. Dig like mad. I used a total of 3hours 45 mins, alot of people fainted due to dehydration and heat. Me too almost join them.

IF I WERE A FARMER'S SON,

IF I WERE TO MARRY,

I WOULD MARRY A FARMER'S DAUGHTER,

MORE THEN ANYBODY,

WHY,

CAUSE SHE CAN DIG,

I CAN DIG,

WE CAN DIG TOGETHER,

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT,

DIGGING ONE ANOTHER.

~This is not a pervert song, we can put in any occupation (e.g, police-shoot)***

Yup, alot of different kind of insects found, centipede, earthworm, ants, grasshoppers, crickets, etc etc, found snakes and spiders too. Spiders getting as big as palm size.

And one brown snake glided pass my hand. God, shouted and the rest of the people were still in dazed till they saw the snake and they ran in all directions.

Last day of camp, and home to company! Felt so happy to return, we were singing all the way back, haha, favourite song of the year, THE UNDERWEAR SONG.

WE NO MONEY, WE DON'T CARE

WE BUY CHEAP CHEAP UNDERWEAR,

IF IT TEARS, I DON'T CARE,

I GO BUY ANOTHER PAIR.

Reach back company line, clean our rifle and clean ourself from all the camo-cream.

Took the 2000 fastcraft home!

And ate with abel, tired and hungry.

and and i saw the message darl sent me when i was in jungle, how evil can she be~ She hoped that the wild bears will eat me up. Grsss, but we saw boars running across our sleeping area. ROARS!!

Super pigs!!!

Slept peacefully and next morning was an important day

Woke up ard 7 , prepare myself and set off to sent mrs lee to school.

I was there super early, so g0t myself MAC for breakfast and chill there f0r 40 mins~

Bought her harshbrown also, still say no appetite to eat, u almost ate up the paper too. HEHE

Then went over to cheng san cc to play bball with my ns buddies. And then headed over to hub to eat sushi, ate really alot, bill up to close to 200$$

I think we are getting more and more stupid, outside ichiban. I duno how to explain also, just felt that we are like mountain tortoise now!

And piggy lazy follow me go home change then head out, da pi gu lah. So met her at suki sushi instead. then MRT-ed down to chinatown to buy her vintage stuff, too bad, mei you mai, but i gain something from this outing. Secret secret, shhh shhhh...

And then down to dhoby ghaut to eat the dua pui's pasta, i only eat choc cake. and whoo, they gave me discount and even a thanks ya msg at the bottom of the receipt.

haha, super happy lah, cause i think that at moment, we were in each other's world. ARE you baby?

Walked down to PS, then we talked abt how good is MKT, JAYE , as in their good points and what happpen if u see someone, who is of his character, his sweetness, his temper, his look and physical attribute. It would be like a dream come true right. And dar say, she wont look at another guy, not even for ONE SECOND. LOL, i dont believe!!!

And then vannie wants to catch LILO/STITCH for TCC, tried her best , then g0t one lady, i should say, tried catching, and when she g0t it, this lady became XIAO CHA BOR, jumping around like mad.

Bball shooting, har, i think i deprove and i can see the improvement in vssa. Almost caught up with me le, jia you jia you.

Trained home, found a spot for vssa, too tired ler, then i saw her notes, OMG, the way she explain, a chapter, the notes written are like a few bloody pages lah, ke lian darl darl, hugs hugs!

And remember the things u owe me hor, i will remember my things too. Kisses on the cheek!!!

I hope you will be there~ Cant you delay it for me?

Alan is a happy boy yesterday,

Tomorrow and the days after, he will be a happy boy too!!

Loved loved

2008-07-26T15:49:00.002+08:00

Going holiday in the jungle for 6 days and i will book out on a weekday!

Surprises might come along with this bookout. Stay tuned.

Rotting day! Argh, i just continue to rot.

2008-07-26T15:47:00.002+08:00

Take care guys!!

Life is so unpredictable ya. Not knowing what might happen tomorrow, ha, maybe this is my last post then i go off from this world.

You will never know when they are going to take you away!

But i am wondering, if i go! How many are going to grieve and how many are going to celebrate.

2008-07-20T11:14:00.001+08:00

I LOVE VANESSA.

See you in 3 weeks time!

And after exams, spare me sometime for we 2 alright.

Sweet sweet little world.

2008-07-19T15:44:00.002+08:00

Had a relaxing yet tiring week!

Had no morning exercise due to heavy rain, and same goes to tues morning too.

Haha, then on mon, was strength training, no sweat at all. LOL

Then physical training test on tues, before that , rained super heavy!

And we were told to continue with the test with the floors all wet and slippery. KAOX

Almost slipped when i was doing the standing broad jump. Phew!

Ok, i noticed my SBJ getting lower, time to do more leg exercise. Just 4 more cm.

Jia you REC LEE KIAN YONG ALAN

Wed to Fri

We had live round shooting. Any mistakes and one man could die, so they were extra careful and more demanding. I did pretty well for my practice shoot.

And on thurs, the real test!

Was super duper scare, hand was trembling like mad.

I missed alot alot of shots, other platoon sergeant was shouting, shoot higher , more to the left and right! The more i want to hit, the more i missed! Hate myself. Bobo shooter!

G0t to reshoot and this time, my sergeant was my assistant and he guided me throughout the whole range test, encouraging me whenever i hit target.

I think i am the type who will excel more under encouragement and not scolding! Thanks sergeant!

In the end i g0t 16/16 for morning shoot.

Waited for 3 hours to continue the night shoot.

I missed 2, so g0t 14/16.

If only i had shoot properly, i would be able to book out on friday night. Just too bad.

Fri, we just did nothing, slack around and waited for time to pass only.

Yeah, then we were having this coversation,

When someone ask, what is love!

And and , a guy can do anything and everything for a girl, but what can a girl do for a guy?

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

NO LONGER! BYEBYE

2008-07-13T00:14:00.003+08:00

2nd part cont...

Had dinner with dearling, waited close to 45 mins for a place to settle down, yup can see that vannie's face getting blacker as time pass. LOL, yeah and i am honour cause she agreed to eat sushi with me, and she rejected shipei and mkt. ha

Ya, atmosphere was rather wierd, not like in the past already. I used to feed her, now she feeds me. LOL

Ate v little, not much appetite though.

And walked around choosing formal wear for mkt for his concert. Dear was like so kan-chiong over his clothes, she is her make-up designer.

It's your choice lah, find him a nice top.

And bus-ed home, been a long long time, since i had this feeling. It feels like the first month of our r.s .

''I'll be your dream
''I'll be your wish
''I'll be your fantasy.
''I'll be your hope
''I'll be your love
''Be everything that you need.

She talked alot, abt his friendship between his darling and honey. I trust you cause i feel that couples must have this particular trust for the relationship to maintain.

Yeah, and i think the maid saw us. hmmm hmmm.

I guess i sank too deep, till i can get out of this pit hole myself.

''I want to stand with you on a mountain.
''I want to bathe with you in the sea.
''I want to lay like this forever.
''Until the sky falls down on me...

Vannie send me this mail and i personally feels that this few points are true(applies to me)

-when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

-Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

-You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

-We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

It's been a month since i go ns, Officer-in Charge(OC) now knock us down as and when he like.
So today basically, for 5BX i did around 30 push-up, before fall in for morning run another 20, and before the start of the run kana pump 140. WTF, i think overall als0 g0t do more then 200 ++ push up!

Dear feeling down now, so i shall not go and disturb her, see if i can help her retrieve out her sd card anot, has loads of project and reports on hand, and and 5 more weeks to exams, jia you jia you k, i might not be able to be there physically to encourage you, but u can always sms me whenever you're feeling down, cause my phone is on 24/7 for you girl.

Hugs u tightly, and if given the chance, i wont want to let go!

I might just be another guy in your world, but to me, u mean the whole world to me!

This this important

''Would you believe that I could be your guardian angel.
''Do you believe that this is true
''If you say yes I'll fall and I will be able
''To look at anyone so true I love you

我相信命运掌握在自己的手里.

我爱你

2008-07-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

Back again, seriously dont have the feeling to blog. Feeling damn lethegic, but nvm, meeting my source of energy for awhile and i guess it's home sweet home after that. So busy that i guess she hardly has time for me.

I'm neglecting her, day by day. No message received, no message sent. Argh, sorry baby, dint wanna disturb u , but even if i msg, also no reply lah. ha

Yeah, next week is going to be a tough week. Monday g0t strength training, and then tue start to have the IPPT test 2.

My sergeant expects me to get a gold for this physical training. I mean, how can it possibly happen to me! I am a zero fighter for pull up in the first week, now now at most can do only 3. How can i do 12 in the next few days.

And now only my pull up is making me fail, the rest of the station i all g0t 5 (which is the max points lah)

How how how, somebody teach me / help me can!!!

Hmmm, going to have our little secret talk with dearling.

To be cont...

2008-07-06T09:59:00.002+08:00

Ok, made my feelings known, and i guess things are all going well now?

Partially was my fault also k, so here i apologise! Sorry.

Yeah, and last night g0t called down for supper with mx,botak,hao and pig leg!

So left house around 2345, and mx ride me there. HA

The feeling of letting people dong-pang feels so shiok lah, (he's riding a bicycle last night)

People started looking at us as if we were gays! cause we were so close to one another. But we are both straight ok.

Cold wind blows and my butt and arms cramp, cause cannot anyhow move!

Yeah, talked alot about NS stuff lah, the problem with NS men. Change topic.

After the rain, we're gonna see clear sky again!

Loves .

And Vanessa, i g0t your name right this time.

-194.

2008-07-05T22:20:00.003+08:00

So long nv update, so a little update about what happen in my life in p.tekong!

Yup, basically everyday physically training there, running, push-up, chin-up and sit-up. Cycle goes on and on. Boo.

Already my 3rd week in tekong and still able to manage my life over there, made some new friends and really g0t along real well.

Got myself a high fever during my 2nd week in tekong. Temp went as high as 38.1 degrees.

Went over to see medical officer and g0t to drip water. The medic sucks lah, poke also duno how to poke, make my blood spurn everywhere.

Yeah, and next week i g0t to do guard duty, heard from those who have done guard duty, saying it's v tiring lah, the moment they came back from duties, they were all like zombie, calling for their bed.

Next wed will be my turn. So must sleep early on tuesday!

Ya, somehow i feel that we have been cheated by PS. He told us that we DO NOT, have to do guard duty on weekend, then on friday night, he told us that he needs 6 ppl to do duty, which is like so fucking last min. And those who kena was like, freaking piss off and angry lah, cause they already made their plans for weekends.

So, a few of those guard personal couldnt make it and had to find replacement. So i was chosen to replace them, and i find all sorts of stupid excuse to reject them cause i wanted to see someone so dear so close to me!

In the end, we were labelled as selfish lots by PC.

No one volunteered and one of the mates g0t sarcrifies.

Cabbed home with ah wai and chris, was really tired, that i skipped lunch. Wash up, wash clothes then wait for it to dry and hang. In between took a short nap lah.

And vssa msged me, saying she's gonna give me a 2 day off. Felt kind of disappointed ya cause erh, ... you know you know.

Also sense something before i book out, that the msg received looks abit funny.

Cause her com and lappie spoil, i lend her mine to let her do her work. Take good care of my 3rd wifey.

Sore throat still can eat KFC, i totally have nothing to say. But u must learn how to take care of yourself now.

Drink plenty of water ok.

Well , maybe maybe, you shouldnt have told me that. It makes me ponder!!!

Have you already make a choice?

I mean, there is still so much time , true lah, you might be busy with your work, but i aint adding stress onto you also.

It made me emo-ed

I know that i cant be discouraged by this little stuff. I have got to be strong!

2 years, not too long nor too short.

I will wait and hold onto it.

True enough, other boys/girls might walk pass our life and give you a deep impression. But is he/her the one you're really looking for?

Think*Think*Think*

I find myself doing things that i have never done in the past! Things like going over just wanting to see you, buy you a bottle of herbal tea when you are feeling unwell. All was not done till i met you. You made me change a little!

Behind the happy face might be a crying face.
Dont just look on the appearance,
look into the heart.

Vssa, have i walked into your heart and touch it?

Enough is enough, Time for some pics

Back to June 10:

Me and darling, argh, my teeth. LOL

Dar self cam, while alan plays PSP.

Finale:

I dont like this pic, the one in the neo print is better!
who cares!!

Next week will feature the botak alan.

Loves..

2008-06-28T11:42:00.002+08:00

Hello, i am out for 2 days.

Yup, still adapting to the life in NS, i mean, g0tta sleep in early and waking up early the next day. I wasnt used to it at all in the first few days, i am always the late sleeper and wake up around 10am.

Now they want us to sleep at 2230 and wake up at 0530, horrible right? And i g0t to talk to the floor whenever the sir is not happy with us. If u know what i mean!

So basically there's no physical training because there's a NSF who died , so for the first 3 days, we were not allowed to do anything but slack and get ourself familiarize with the place and people.

The following monday, training starts, and yeah, 5BX in the morning, stand-by area after breakfast and lectures or training after that. Quite tiring though, but i have endure through all that.

G0t myself more roasted and the shape is coming out too. Goodie, will improve more and make it nice! ha.

O, and there was once, when we were making our helmet, then my sergeant was scolding this guy, which makes the phrase popular for one week,

he was scolding this guy:"Are you a cock, why do so long?!"

REC: "no sergeant"

Sergeant:"Then u must be a chee bye"

Ok, plenty of u all out there wont get the joke, nvm.

And of cause , i believe time makes the love stronger, i wonder if u are on the same frequency with me too?

And the words written on the letter, comes together with love and sincerity.

All those come through the bottom of my heart.

Yeah, girls will run away when guys are in NS.

O, ya and on thurs morning, one day before booked out, i g0t a high fever, up to 38.1, i dint tell anyone , cause i dint want them to worry, i guess they are not worried too. Cuz i will take care of myself ya.

Supposing wanted to give vssa a surprise by popping at her house, but in the end, it was a surprise at all lah. Yeah, she look so tired, the face expression shows all.

So time spent together was like 15 mins, but it was good just to see her . Only have simple wishes!

Hope u like it!

2008-06-12T07:16:00.001+08:00

byebye, i go ns liaox. See u guys in 2 weeks time!!! wahahahahahaha

2008-06-11T00:34:00.010+08:00

Yeah, this one confirm is gonna be last post for today!

Yup, had some misunderstanding with baby and ya, cleared!

So, we went to the zoo as a happy couple.

Meeting time was 11 and 1055 she msg me say, bus g0t traffic jam and so, i waited patiently, 百分百BF mah. HAHA.

And off we went MAC for lunch, eat a little first, in case go zoo faint then paiseh liaox. And baby had the spicy nuggets while i have my mcChicken!

And off to take 138, luckily not much people. And in front of us g0t one pair of ang-mo, and i think their world change alittle, now is girl hug boy to sleep instead of the other way round. LOL

Awww, i want to be in baby's arm too. hehe and i play super mario throughout the whole journey, i am good in that hor, stages that vssa cannot pass, i pass. Hohohoho.

Reach Zoo! Buy ticket and went in, o, i think the price increase quite alot alot hur.

Ok, only take pictures of the animals, without us, cause we will too shy. Ya, rubbish lah, just take lor, cause we dont really look good.

Here goes:

Omg, see the croc so big and long!!

And here comes the uncle, who hardly goes to the zoo, posing!

Most artistic 2 pics are:

Rank 1:

Rank 2:

The best part of the leopard show,

and then next moment...

tadaaaaaa...

Had a very enjoyable day with darling baby. Yeah, and i shall not post my half nude picture. LOL.

After zoo, alighted at the market there and g0t something to eat, before setting off to my house. Alright, we cab home, we were so tired and my stomach was like, c'mon, i need to go battling.

Yeah, then went home sleep awhile and we went out play bball. HA, last time i am gonna touch a basketball.

And then before i go, was looking for my wallet, and goodnesssss sake, i cant find it. Was like panicking cause IC , atm and stuff all inside, and i am going ns like tml. Fuck shit. So tracked back the route to look for my wallet, was wondering if i g0t bring out anot. Usually , phone , keys and wallet are tgt de mah. So borrowed money from baby, cabbed home again.

Found it on my table. Phew!!! HAHA, so i go bathe, and send baby home. I remember clearly, before i started bathing, the weather was like ok, fine! And when i came out, it was raining cats and dogs. SUPER HEAVY, so went eat supper and cab to her house and back, cant possibly take bus, we will be dead by then. LOL

And i tink i can go be a taxi-driver man. Imagine the taxi-driver asking ME how to go. And if i know how to go, i wont have taken a cab. Dumb right, and he was panicking throughout his whole journey, and asking if he g0t the right direction, so feel like alighting and take another cab. Gosh.

And very tired. Knock out as soon as my head touch the pillow. Hmmmm, yeah. Another 6precious hours. PICTURES PICtuREs.

And no more emo nicks for you! DA PIPI

2008-06-06T11:12:00.003+08:00

Time really flies, see now, one more week from today and i will be reporting at tekong! G0tta go opp and see what i need to buy.

Alright man, pay is out baby! I am rich once again. HAHA, yeah, i think i shouldnt blog so much lah, also g0t nothing much to write also

Everyday same old routine, wake up, on com, play game, sleep and tv. Ya, Life's good when u dont have to work but u be bored by the same things lah.

Just let me enjoy this 7 days peacefully and make it a memorable one.

This week sentosa gathering already cancel due to insufficient ppl, but seriously hope me and baby will at least go zoo, since she's dying to go and see her friends!!

And had a chat with hongxin the day before and now then i know that actually 438 ppl had so much grudges with one another. Yeah, at first, yong hao and zhen yuan, then yao guang and ah hee, then now yong hao and ken, and ken with ah hee.!!! Complicated can, i dont want to be in this mess, clear this shit up and dont dragged me in, i hate to be the middle person, always helping your to transfer msg! Why cant we all be like in the past, gather at s11 for a drink and cheering on our fav team, or just sit down and have a drink!!!

Yeah, okies, i am off to lunch and take my pay! byebye. Hope this wont be the last entry.

2008-06-05T12:09:00.000+08:00

Heehee, baby is coming over later!! Happy!!! =D=D=D

2008-06-04T12:25:00.002+08:00

Faster blog!!

yeah, anyway going to update the diary with many many entries then i shall pass it to her on wed, and she can slowly read.

yup, so far so, nothing much happen also, yesterday went shopping alone, and got myself a shoe, shoe bag. Later going opp and see what i can get for next week camp! Laughs

And then run in school, this time, no stamina run, wondering what happen, cause i gt the stamina to run from serangoon to sengkang and no stamina to run 6 stupid rounds. Guess is because there no one beside to talk and motivate me to carry my legs and run.

And then have lunch with godma at asian 1, then talked, since long since we both sit down and chat.

And i slept v early last night, 10plus jiu sleep le, and darling msg me , arggg, i am gonna keep that msg she send me. hehe. Cause .. shhhh, its a secret.

Yeah and i woke up at 1++. Initially wanted to msg darl and ask if she's asleep, but i hesitated and in the in i dint. She had a tired day too!

OK, i had a v wierd dream last night, REALLY V STRANGE AND WIERD. Dont want to think abt it anymore, yeah. Think back, is rather funny and scary!

And i woke up 6 plus, i think i am crazy lah, ask my father buy breakfast for me, when i have totally no appetite to eat. I am sick.

* Gone with the wind. *

1804.. -> ....

2008-06-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

Ya, was stuck in the lift at the indoor stadium with my bros!

Actually nothing should happen, until ah hee go and pom bee bee junze, and the whole lift starting shaking. Yeah, and then it dint move lah, just move up storey one and two, but the door just donwan open. Ya, was inside like for abt 3-4 mins. HAHA, nice experience.

Awww, i miss miss miss vannie lah, though it's only 1 day, we met on sunday. It seems like a v long time hur, i suppose honey moon period is like that.

Yeah, and today g0t pang seh by LEE MEI XUAN, u better dont sleep next time we meet. *GRSSS*

2008-06-02T14:53:00.004+08:00

Ok, back to blog after a long holiday!

Hmmm, Zhang dong liang tear down was total mess sia, so many eye-power. Hate them hate them.

Yup, thought can finish by 4am, then i reach office at about 5 and then cab home. Super duper shagged liaox.

Before that went find baby. Boohooooo.

Yeah. And i find out that actually many singers and actors are GAY.

Gerry Yan of F4

Zhang dong liang!!!

Omg, cannot believe what i hear man. I shall go find out who are those gays.

Yeah, and yesterday before Click 5's show, i went over to baby house and gave her a shock of her life. LOL

Yeah, she's a stupid pig lah, go bed also dont know how to put the status away. I msged her on msn and she dont want reply, i tot i did something or say some wrong words. Go bang wall. GOGOGOGo.

So at night, bought bubble tea and wrote her something. Shhhhhhh. AVA secret.

Was late for the tear-down. When u need cab, there's no one in sight, and when u dont need. Cabs fly pass u like nobody business. I waited for 30 mins before i g0t one. KAOX.

Yeah, tear till 4am. Not bad ar, quite early le.

And bagala have tough life man, they work so much, so long hours and earn only 50$, leader of the bagala group can earn 70$, and they are really worth the leader position.

Yeah, this incident happens and my god, really touch me.

Was loading the truss onto the lorry and the whole truss drop and i think drop onto one bagala's leg, imagine, not 10 kg plus weight eh, it's around 1000kg hitting his leg, and the bagala leader like g0t possess, shouting the rest to hold the truss while he g0 get him out. OMG, then he keep rubbing his injured leg and duno say what, i dont understand either. Luckily! Nothing serious.

And i hit my leg when i try to climb up the truss to do adjusting. Sobs, blue black.

The rest of the week, is for my baby. Good luck for the test. And after that you're MINE

2008-06-01T17:12:00.002+08:00

I duno what happen to baby!

Suddenly she doesnt want to reply my msg, seriously i duno what i can do!

2008-05-30T15:11:00.002+08:00

I'm back, sounds so long i nv online. LOL

Ok, Yesterday's set-up was super duper tedious, reported at suntec at 9am, and then started to do all the setting lor. Wah, was so shagged lah, i was like wandering soul. HAHAHA.

Yeah, and my pants split, OMGGGGG. Open until so big lah, gosh.

And tml i will be watching zhang dong liang concert, FOC. Wahahaha.

Reach home around 6 and wanted to give baby a surprise by waiting for her at the bus stop, but i failed and in the end, she waited for me and because of my late-ness, i think she's late for her presentation and i am soo soo sorry!

Cabbed home and sleep, whooo, the shiok-ness of switching air-con and sleep so peacefully, no words can describe. LOL

OK, seriously, time spend with baby nw is critical. Every-min counts.

Baby~ after 3 months, i will be doing all those things with u again le alright, put the monkey beside u when u're on the bus and talk to him, though people like bring u to hougang chalet.

I'm sure i am entitled to one day when u have your 2 weeks break, i am not being greedy right. Hehe.

alright, i know u r reading and smiling to yourself, smile big big and then ur nose goes big big also. HAHAH.

Hugs tightly** Grssss

Yipppeeee, Sentosa trip is on. Time for some bikini girls and underwear hunks.

2008-05-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

Ok, baby here's for you. Chill alright! It's their fault, and mkt owe u one liaox.

Ya, went school for lunch with baby, ate Mac and after that she disappear for her practical and i am left alone to rot for 3 hours, or rather 4!

Yup, so return the graduation robe first, then make my way to arcade to spend some time. Played the bball shooting machine, g0t a score of 225, just cant get out of the score 225. Shit, next time i aim 228 first. LOL

Yeah, then i tot i wasted closed to 2 hours le, then look at my phone and the time indicates 1330!!!! Gosh, i still g0t 2hours plus more to go.

So went sports link to shop, see if there's anything i can buy or things that i will look good on. Laughs.

Wanted to buy one FBT shorts for running, but so short and sexy. Guess i will stick back to my normal shorts.

Yeah, then at hub, there's this auntie walked up to me and ask me for money. Yup, i rejected. EVIL ALAN.

Then walked walked walked. And then back to school to wait for baby.

Stood there like gundooo then darl msg me and ask me go her lab and wait. Yeah,

And ben's cooking is nice, he makes a good chef, if he wants to continue shatec.

And home sweet home. TIRING!!! But all worth it.

BABY~~~~~~~

Refer to the msg i am gonna send u, but u dont cry ok! huGs...

2008-05-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

Here, welcome!

Take a look at this, and if any of this interest u! Tell me OK!!

http://www.wardrobefantasies.blogspot.com/

2008-05-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

Woah, What a day!

Last night went jogging with ah hee, at a v strange time. 0030. Yeah, in the middle of the night. Wahahah, he msg me at 11plus, yeah. Go run lor, since i notice that i am getting those excess fats at my tummy area.

Yup, met up at the road junction, did some warm up and started running, had no destination in mind lah, yeah, then thought of running to sengkang, then can either meet up with hong xin or ade mah.

Half-run and talk with ah hee, then talked about his past gfs and work related stuff.

Then called baby, for fun lah, cause i know she wont be able to come down for a drink, but still i call her just to listen to her voice.

Yeah, then stopped at rivervale mall for drink and after that continue run, ok, my stamina still there, run quite consistently. Next time must maintain the pace and increase my speed a little.

Sat at hougang point for drink, cause really dehydrated. And after that i walked home, so shagged liaox.

Bathe and look at the time, 2 plus le, hair wet cannot slp, so tuned on tv and watch. Yup, i told my mum i will acc her for breakfast in the morning before she goes work, so i tahan till 5am! Just another 45 mins then she will wake up, BUT BUT, i was too tired, so i went in for a nap, and when i woke up, it's already 7 and my mama is out liaox.

Yeah, so went bball today, stupid weather , started to rain, then then then i go slp. OMG, shouldnt have gone to bed. I g0t like so many small small bad dreams.

This are those i remember clearly, darling baby leaves me, ah xiao scolding me when i am working at show co.(But he is not even working there, i wonder how they 2 are related. LOL). I woke up in sweat.

Yeah, slp wake slp wake. My gosh.!!!!

Went down 438 for shooting practice, no ppl. Sian. Then ah hee fall and hit his head, lucky nothing happen. Phew!!!

And home sweet home.

2008-05-27T12:27:00.002+08:00

Yo!

Went back school and fetch baby for dinner!!

Was requested to put on perfume, cause she likes the smell! Wahahah, but i think by the time she finish her lesson, my sweat has already covered the smell of the perfume. LOL

Yeah, then headed to hub for sushi, ate back the same item, guess the service staff also know who we are liaox, ying jun & mei nu mah!

Yeah, she's rather pissed with her project stuff, so she nag nag and i listen lor.

After that jiu go play the bball shooting machine, not bad ar. We too combine can get a total score of 225. Aim for 250 next time baby!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, muackssssss

2008-05-25T21:03:00.002+08:00

Worked at Harlem's concert and return home only this morning! Yeah, and slept through so peacefully. Cause my parents are all sooooo quiet. They are usually v noisy. HAHA

Yeah, a 3-day concert, the set-up , standby and the tear-down.

First day, i was the first to report to the office, yea, cause my dad drove me there ya. So slacked at the coffee shop first, then saw junze and jeffrey.

Yup, started loading all the equipment and things.

Blah,blah,blah. Midnight le.

Then jeffrey ask botak and ming xi to go back first then me and junze stay back, then after that junze also go home. Left me and jeffrey. WhyWHY, i first to come and i must be the last one to go. Booooooooo SAD SAD

Waited for the programmers to program finish, and i just lie down and sleep. =/

From 3plus wait till 6plus then they finish programming.

And 2nd day, i was the last one to leave again. Soooo sian lah, but 2nd days, all my bros stay back with me. LOL

And ming xi ask me to go up thrust. I g0t phobia of heights, so he ask me to grab hold of the rope and he tied me with safety rope.

So up went the thrust and the higher it goes, i grab the rope tighter and tighter. And i g0t shaky legs lah. SAI.

I think i wont be able to overcome this phobia.

Yeah, bestie baby! You're loved. Till the day. And i wanna spend it with u too, if tml is 世界末日

Left less then 20days to tekong. I haven go pack my things yet. O0pps.

2008-05-23T14:32:00.002+08:00

I am almost dead after 24 hours of work.

**BANG BANG**

Reach office ard 7 plus and i reach home this morning 7 plus. WAH MAN

Was so tired, i bathe and i g0t KO instantly. LOL

Nnn, i am so !@#$%^&*() missing my baby. I tot today no need work then can go over give her surprise. But boooooo.

Alright, going off soon. BYE and HARLEM YU here i come.

2008-05-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

I'm going to learn how to smile! Yeah, been really really v long since i take pics with nice smiles!

Ya,

I'm really happy with her.

:D

Alright,

Work today still fine, had the best lunch since i started working for show company!

Yeah,tiring and slacked alot. Yeah, even waiting for train also can fall aslp.

That's how tired i am! But all is worth it, as long as there's a take care msg!

Yeah, next show up will be harlem yu, zhang dong liang and the click 5!

Baby, there will be time for you!, dont worry. You're still dancing around in my mind

2008-05-19T16:46:00.004+08:00

80s rewind...

16 May.

Happy birthday to Jason.
Yeah, was late lah, meeting time was 1845 but i was still at sengkang meeting baby!

Brought herbal tea for her, see my tea good right? Drink and you're healed. LOL

Yeah, Jason himself was late too, so we waited for one another at centre-point at 1930. Then walked to SAKURA to eat.

There's this advantage of being late, cause all the food will be ready on the table and u just have to eat.

OK, it's always the same after eating, they all have no idea what to do next.

Either K or pool was the choice! Finally they chose pool.

I played 2 games then went back early cause next morning g0t to work.

O, anyway i quit DOME ler, no longer working there liaox.

17 May.

Met Botak and Ken for breakfast before heading to office! Yeah, Ken emo-ed and dint talk to us the whole day, we talked to him he also no response.

Yeah, so for the whole day of work, we isolated him and whenever he come close to us, we walked away. OMG, sound so evil.

Super tired that day, super duper hate ah bu neh neh. They farking take their own sweet time and let us do shit sia.

From 1700 hours, we slacked and do nothing till 2100, and then they do full dress rehersal and we g0t to wait for them to finish. LIKE WTF. And ended work at 0100.

Supposing meeting xiaofan and co for the bbq de, but they say, by the time i reach, they are gonna go home. Wlau. I missed all the fun lah.

And baby missed the surprise that i planned for her too.

yeah, reach home whole body ache and eyes closing as i walked. LOL

Bathe after that then watch tv and played game. Slept around 2am.

Yeah. Finally!

18 May

Happy monthsary baby!

Met baby at vivo, wow. Was flooded with people! She enjoyed hur, early morning go underwater world. Ya, walked around then catch 'What happen in Vegas', a must watch movie ok, high rating for this.

Practically both of us were v tired then we went up the shelter there , talk and rest.

Yeah, Relax for 2 hours. And the movie starts, we were in the first row, too many people liaox.

Hilarious show. Laugh dao peng.

And after that head down to bugis go buy watch and makan dinner. Cheap cheap! but nice. Love it man.

Still i owe piggy a meal, remind me ar, forget then no more liaox.

And down to esplanade, omg, i think we shall that thing. We both saw he was at the door there, and before the bus reach the bus stop, we g0t up and saw him GONE, The door also haven open eh!!!

GOSh. hahaha

Then went home, almost half dead man. LOL

But i definitely enjoy my day. LOVE LOVES..

Remember next lifetime and many more down the road.

2007-06-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS

"Nobody's Home"

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

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How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high above in the trees
Serenade the flowers with their melodies oh oh oh
See there beyond the hill
The bright colors of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just to fall in love
(*)
You'll hold me in your arms
And say once again, you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

Now I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me oh oh oh
Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without love
Be always true to me
Kept it stay in your heart eternally
Someday we shall return to this place upon
The meadow
We'll walk out in the rain
Hear the bird's above sing once again oh oh oh
(Repeat *)

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静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸
不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天
就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
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我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的
蜜语甜言
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La La La La La
La La La La La
这首歌要给一个人
歌声代替语言
深情只增不减
那一刻吻她的脸
地转天旋

爱的感觉
比樱桃更甜
双眼放送闪电
能超越极限
让人忘了季节
爱成了经典
为他付出所有爱怨

要你永远是我的小乌龟
我爱你
每一天

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My favourite songs: